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Okay you know what? I've decided to start up my blog again. I feel that my english language has been real bad recently. I've been typing too much shortcuts because of twitter and it must have affected how i write and my sentence structures during exam. GOSH THAT IS A REAL BAD ISSUE. Oh and i'm sorry for my previous blog post. I was just frustrated and needed somewhere to rant my nonsensical crap. So pardon me. :\

I've been doing not so well recently. First things first, prelim 1 is almost over and ha ha. Obviously i screwed up. Actually if i was more confident in what i was revising and had more time, i wouldve done better in my humanities. As for math.... Such a disappointment. I feel like i should just dig a hole and hide my head inside. Language wise, like i said, i havent been doing really well lately. Its just a downhill for everything, basically. -_- I'm not smart, i'm not stupid either. I'm just pure lazy. I wish i could just kick off those lazy bones. It'll really help alot, i swear.

Enough with the studies. I think i have a split personality. Actually i feel that everyone does. We can actually put up a strong front when there are people around you. When you're left alone, you just feel, helpless. Do you get what i mean? Nobody can make you feel good. Nothing. You're just weak and pathetic and i really dont know what other words can describe that despondent feeling. Its just terrible to keep feeling that every night.

As i grow a year older each year, i feel like i have gotten colder to the opposite sex. During sec1, fuck man i should just admit that i talk to any guy who flirts with me, gives my number to anyone who wants it. It was hell of a year. Until someone turned up and changed my life for that short period of time. I have no idea why i felt like i was in wonderland. Like seriously, in the past, i felt like he was my everything and i'd die without him. K enough with that crap. I think no one expected i was such a bitch. Well i was. Then when i went to sec2, i started to have infatuation with a guy whom i dont even know from church for wtf 2years? -_- Yeah i know i'm NUTS.

It was starting of sec3 that i started to hate guys alot. 1st, i dont understand whats so important about appearance. 2nd, i get adds from people i dont even know and they start judging me based on my photos. WHAT THE FAUK. 3rd, "i like you. can we stead." <- THIS IS THE WORSE SENTENCE, EVER. Damn guys, please grow up. I dont believe you can actually 'like' someone just because you're attracted to his/her appearance. That sort of 'like' will eventually fade off. So why waste time on such jerks? MOVE ON. Love at first sight? Tell me how and why. Are you nuts? Do you know his background? Do you know how he is like? Do you know what he likes and dislikes? Do you know whats his hobby and can you read his mind even if he isnt talking? If your answer to all or most of the questions above is a "NO", then gurl, stop crapping with the love at first sight shit.

Sorry that i'm too against males but...... No one proved that i was wrong right? Yes there is one, SORT OF. But you're such an on and off. One moment you can treat me like a princess and care like some crazy person and the next, you leave me hanging there thinking i should just throw you in the bin. I dont know. My gut feeling tells me that i should hang on but i really dont know what result am i expecting. Its either, 1, i'm too paranoid. 2, you're trying to get my attention(wtf?) 3, you're obviously using me. You really dont seem like a bad guy. But i really got no prove to anything. You might probably tell every girl the same thing cuz like me, THEY ALWAYS FALL FOR IT. Yes this is every girl's weak point. Lol. I dont know what to say.

I want to text you things like, "what happened to you. why havent you text me for so long.", show some concern or just simply start a conversation. But 3/4 is stopping me from doing that. My mind keeps telling me that you're doing this to every single girl, and you're getting sick of me. Hence, you dont even bother replying. So why the hell should i start texting you and fall into your trap man? Every minute im thinking thinking thinking and i bet my life you dont even know that. I'm sorry i really dont know how to express myself but UGGGGGGHHHHH.

Sorry i dont even know what i'm posting already. So, byebye. I promise i'll try to keep up with posting. But hmmmm, thats only if i get readers la... ._. LOL byebye.